"Barn"

Solitude

Long before dawn, again this morning it is cold here ~ yet liveable.. Sitting alone on the deck bench, I sip my coffee, light my smoke, absorb and relish the silence.. The full moon now although low in the westerly sky, glows with beacon force.. My senses of the stillness absorb me.. Not a wisp of air current ~ ever so calm ~ peaceful ~ soundless.. If there truly is a heaven, this has to be it.. WOW!! Reclusiveness truly is all mine. ~~~~~~~ The above was a journal entry I made in mid January 2005, while I lived in wedded "HISS" in Whitney TX.. At the time, I was unemployed for 35 days thanks totally to an Immigration screw up.. I spent my free time home alone at the Barn.. Eventually Immigration set things straight, I was re-instated with the company I drove truck for and running the Interstates again..

Web of a Spider

darkness has come again to the land.. outdoors the air has a sweet aroma, within a hint of calmness.. a clarity i welcome.. another day has passed without much mind turmoil.. 5th of march is coming though.. i wish the day long past.. a wedding anniversary.. would be 3rd in many that i wanted to experience within love with him.. his abuse i could not tolerable.. his private life mattered more to him. his family knew not of me. he made me his caged animal within boundaries of his liking. i lived in "our" house separate of him until he had time to share.. he was my spider. he free of me while he gloated on his pedestal of unworthyness to his family.. he haunted my soul of dignity and truth - until i left..

1st Post

Not certain where to start here.. Play the game I suppose much like the rest of my life.. Like a dirtroad with many potholes, and washboard ruts that bounce the truck in all directions.. You can see it all in the distance, know you should slow down but all you really want to do is hit it full speed to see where you will end up.. You think you are in control, yet chances are you will not get through it unscathed, yet you keep your foot into it..

take care, be safe

Septembers Song